I was so busy after I came back to Taiwan that I didn't even have time to unpack my luggage until recently. I was quite down too. I happened to come across this letter I wrote during my summer vacation for my friend. My grandpa passed away too suddenly that I couldn't get to deliver it. I read the letter again. It inspires me somehow. So here goes the letter:
Dear Stella
Dear Stella
I'm really glad to receive your letter, seeing your spiritual growth. My dad read the letter too! He said that he had forgotten what he told you the other day, yet you etched his words deeply in your heart. :) Stella! It's my honour to have such friend!
You told me about the tribulation you encountered the other day. I've been thinking about it. Yea, life is a long run. It's really inevitable to encounter situations that we abhor, especially with different kinds of people around us. I had undergone similar experiences too. :) I believe that you have the potential to overcome it.
Yes, I understand how it feels like when people around you care for themselves -- what we called "selfish". Loneliness gutted my heart and eventually, I began to indulge in self-pity. The "angel" and "devil" struck a battle.
"Hey! They're so brusque... Caustic! They hurt me!" claimed the devil.
"Come on! No one is perfect. I've shortcomings too", argued the angel.
"They threw tantrum as they want! They only talked to me when they need me! What a bunch of ingrates!" the devil convinced.
"No one wants to be unhappy! Why am I destructing my own happiness with anger? Chill!"
The battle went on and on. The devil wanted to persuade me that I'm right to feel sorry for myself, whereas the angel was refraining me from plunging deeply into the mere. Most of the time, devil's standpoint sounds mellifluous to ears. Despite being bombarded by the devil for umpteenth time, the angel refused to surrender. Finally, it got the most powerful weapon.
"Try to think about somebody in my life, who never gives up on me. Somebody who is willing to accept me for who I am, like the most precious jewel on Earth, even though I labelled myself as "incorrigible". Somebody whi us willing to give me happiness, despite being hurt by me for countless times."
It was so rhetoric! The afflictions soon melted and sublime. Of course, the angel triumph over the devil! All these internal conflicts were tiring, but worthy! :D
There is always "somebody" in my life, imbue with wisdom and compassion, who cares for me at all times. He gives me courage to face adversity, the wisdom to overcome hurdle. He's my spiritual teacher-- The Buddha. :)
He pointed out the values in me which I never realized. I began to realize these values in myself. Upon these realizations, I believe that I can see the values of others as well. I began to realize that all my inner destructions are caused by my wrong reactions. I found myself silly at times! Why am I torturing myself with unnecessary anger? Don't I want to me happy?
It's really not easy to seek for their merits at first. It's like sniffing a pile of garbage, hypnotizing my self that "it smells great". I'm just lying to myself. I had been through a tiring stage of observations, trying to find flowers and diamonds in them. This is especially challenging when I'm deluded by their shortcomings. Throughout the process, I did find gems in them, but not all yet!
I happened to learn that things weren't as bad as I imagined. I took initiative to show concern for them as how my spiritual teacher care for me. Perhaps some of their responses might be indifferent or discouraging, but I believe that my spiritual teacher is right by my side, giving me his fullest support. These people are blessings in disguise! They gave me an opportunity to relinquish my negative feelings, vanquishing the demons in my heart, most importantly, to be a step closer to my spiritual teacher. Aren't they great? They broaden my mind! Good qualites are inculcated throughout the journey. Shouldn't I be grateful and treat them much sincerely than before? :) I believe in Karma, I believe that they are my mirror. A change of thought changes the whole senario.
Along the journey, I found awesome people around me. They possess good qualites which I can learn from them with humility and deserve respect. I do feel honoured to have wonderful people around me. You are wonderful too, Stella! :D They are human beings, just like me. They are sentient beings, they want happiness too.
Thank you so much for your patience for reading such lengthy letter. Those are just my little experience in life. I'm sharing them with you because I believe that you have the potential to share your affections with people around you. You have the right to be happy. I believe that you can overcome all the loneliness and sorrow. Most importantly, I'll send you my best regards. Buddha loves you, like He loves anyone else. His love is unconditional and eternal. He loves you as though you are His only child. :)
Anyway, I come across this quote today. The quote which I copied three years ago and I don't remember the source of the quote:
You told me about the tribulation you encountered the other day. I've been thinking about it. Yea, life is a long run. It's really inevitable to encounter situations that we abhor, especially with different kinds of people around us. I had undergone similar experiences too. :) I believe that you have the potential to overcome it.
Yes, I understand how it feels like when people around you care for themselves -- what we called "selfish". Loneliness gutted my heart and eventually, I began to indulge in self-pity. The "angel" and "devil" struck a battle.
"Hey! They're so brusque... Caustic! They hurt me!" claimed the devil.
"Come on! No one is perfect. I've shortcomings too", argued the angel.
"They threw tantrum as they want! They only talked to me when they need me! What a bunch of ingrates!" the devil convinced.
"No one wants to be unhappy! Why am I destructing my own happiness with anger? Chill!"
The battle went on and on. The devil wanted to persuade me that I'm right to feel sorry for myself, whereas the angel was refraining me from plunging deeply into the mere. Most of the time, devil's standpoint sounds mellifluous to ears. Despite being bombarded by the devil for umpteenth time, the angel refused to surrender. Finally, it got the most powerful weapon.
"Try to think about somebody in my life, who never gives up on me. Somebody who is willing to accept me for who I am, like the most precious jewel on Earth, even though I labelled myself as "incorrigible". Somebody whi us willing to give me happiness, despite being hurt by me for countless times."
It was so rhetoric! The afflictions soon melted and sublime. Of course, the angel triumph over the devil! All these internal conflicts were tiring, but worthy! :D
There is always "somebody" in my life, imbue with wisdom and compassion, who cares for me at all times. He gives me courage to face adversity, the wisdom to overcome hurdle. He's my spiritual teacher-- The Buddha. :)
He pointed out the values in me which I never realized. I began to realize these values in myself. Upon these realizations, I believe that I can see the values of others as well. I began to realize that all my inner destructions are caused by my wrong reactions. I found myself silly at times! Why am I torturing myself with unnecessary anger? Don't I want to me happy?
It's really not easy to seek for their merits at first. It's like sniffing a pile of garbage, hypnotizing my self that "it smells great". I'm just lying to myself. I had been through a tiring stage of observations, trying to find flowers and diamonds in them. This is especially challenging when I'm deluded by their shortcomings. Throughout the process, I did find gems in them, but not all yet!
I happened to learn that things weren't as bad as I imagined. I took initiative to show concern for them as how my spiritual teacher care for me. Perhaps some of their responses might be indifferent or discouraging, but I believe that my spiritual teacher is right by my side, giving me his fullest support. These people are blessings in disguise! They gave me an opportunity to relinquish my negative feelings, vanquishing the demons in my heart, most importantly, to be a step closer to my spiritual teacher. Aren't they great? They broaden my mind! Good qualites are inculcated throughout the journey. Shouldn't I be grateful and treat them much sincerely than before? :) I believe in Karma, I believe that they are my mirror. A change of thought changes the whole senario.
Along the journey, I found awesome people around me. They possess good qualites which I can learn from them with humility and deserve respect. I do feel honoured to have wonderful people around me. You are wonderful too, Stella! :D They are human beings, just like me. They are sentient beings, they want happiness too.
Thank you so much for your patience for reading such lengthy letter. Those are just my little experience in life. I'm sharing them with you because I believe that you have the potential to share your affections with people around you. You have the right to be happy. I believe that you can overcome all the loneliness and sorrow. Most importantly, I'll send you my best regards. Buddha loves you, like He loves anyone else. His love is unconditional and eternal. He loves you as though you are His only child. :)
Anyway, I come across this quote today. The quote which I copied three years ago and I don't remember the source of the quote:
"Effort is in the way of the world. So long as I'm in this world with an ounce of strength left, I will try and try, even in mid-ocean with no shore can be seen."
Isn't it encouraging? I love this quote. It gives me motivation. All the best in embracing your dream. Don't worry about taking a longer path than others to reach your destiny. Enjoy the scenary along the journey. Believe that there is no such thing as failure. Every "failure" are actually milestone that takes you a step closer to success! Do something that you never regret when you look back your life.
No matter where I am, we're always friends. You are not alone! Most importantly, thank you so much for supporting me and keeping my secret for me. :)
Take care and stay happy always.
The most sincere regards
Miss Thousand
19 August 2011
